Missed the inbetween... for my boys

I have decided to start this blog for my boys so that you will have some insight to your mom as you'all get older. I also want to try to remember the small things that one tends to forget in the everydayness of life.
I have just realized that I have some unexplained motto of : hurry up and get through it. It doesn't seem to matter what "IT" is i just want to hurry up and get it done. I think i am still waiting for my life to start and it's been passing me by. So i hope not to miss any more inbetween moments.
Starting yesterday i have been making more of a consious effort to "hang" with my boys and to try to get to know your emerging personalities. I love you boys so much, but often most of my time is consumed by "trying to please your father" when in all honesty he would probably be happiest if i would just let him alone. So starting today that's what i am going to do. I am going to leave him to figure out how he "fits" in with us. I hope to make more fun times for us to just chill out to and to make memories and tradtions that i didn't have as a child growing up.